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2000-10-04
15:19:59
i've lost all feeling. i think i've become some sort of subhuman droid. i'm nothing but a cold, hard metallic being who dents beneath the weight of trials and tribulations of life, and yet lets them all bounce right off of me. then all my worries fall at my feet and pile up until they've gotten too high for me to see over.
i'm trapped.
i haven't seen kat in over a week. justin says its the first time he can remember her going more than a day or two without visiting the old steed.
it's all my fault.
i'm ruining everything i touch. i'm just like king midas, but my power is so drastically ruinous that it's making me feel like a walking time-bomb.
i can't take it. i've always been able to come up with a logical course of action to take. i've always known precisely what to do and when to get what i want and need. but this situation has no logic! there's nothing to go on. i can't come up with a single outcome to this that could possibly be good. if i can't come up with a good goal, how the hell am i supposed to know how to get there?
i think i'm going to have to come to terms with the fact that there's no way out.
