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2000-07-18
18:15:53
this is probably a fucking stupid thing to do, but i have a lot to say, and i'm too fucking lazy to get it all out on pen and paper, so i'm gonna put all my thoughts where they can be found by anyone in the world. pretty fucking stupid, isn't it? you probably won't realize how stupid this is until i come to my senses and take it off the web, but i swear to you, if i don't write this somewhere, i'm never gonna get over it.
okay, here goes...
i think i killed someone. i swear i didn't mean to, but it all happened so fast, i didn't even know what was going on!
it's been a couple days now. i think i'm going crazy. i haven't slept since it happened, and i can't look at people. everything's all fucked up now. the world was one place last week, and this week -- it's all fucked up. i don't know what it is. i think i feel guilty, but why would i feel guilty? i'm not sure i killed someone. maybe i just imagined it all. maybe it was all just a really vivid nightmare. if it was just a nightmare, though, waking up would be better than still dreaming, right? well, it's not. i'm pretty sure i'm awake. and i'm all fucked up.
